Saturday, July 19, 2008
i feel as if i'm in denile....
I don't feel like coming out of my room...
i should just like stay in my room, so that i won't trouble anyone anymore..
"I'm a disgrace", my father say to me....
i cannot for get the words that have came out from his mouth
his slap he has given me countless times.... some how has scarred me to be quiet
i feel like a loner..i can still feel the soreness..
every single day, i feel like crying coz everytime there will be flashbacks of him
i feel abused, y does he have to use force against me..
y can't he just talk it out..
he beat me as is i'm not his daughter, as if i'm not his child
he kicked me, slapped me and hit my head
is this the right way...parents are pain in the ass...
they really don't understand me...
i feel miserable, and it hurts...i can't concentrate...
Your evil gesture father have already leave a mark..., an abuse to me
Mother cannot do anything...she will always have to agree with my father..
the only way they can give love is to buy me things...but i don't think they have ever cared for me....they care my brother more than me...besides this....i have o'levels...which is another part of my prob, i feel like crying when i dont understand anything...
my studies..have been slacking...but i will have to study...i want to show my parents...
i can do it....they don't know anything....i hate him...
i don't want to talk...coz he's leading me to nowhere...he's an ego...proud of himself..
he in ownself...needs to think....y am i like this....??
what happen to me...??
i have been stressing my whole life....do u care...??
i want to work hard for you, but do u care...??
u never care...u scarred me, i'm not a kid...i can think for my own...
how the hell do i know whether u climbed the stairs...
it was an accident...WHY the hell do u have beat me up like that...??
